I could name too many things... that means that much.

3 Words. Just 3.

As you probably know, I've been pissed off at dA lately. In fact, I feel like going into the details right now just because I'm on my period, having serious cramps, and want to keel over and die instead of organize my stuff (LOL... okay, so this part way has to do with my serious procrastination skazizles, LOL). Honestly, it's a simple reason that gets so complex that it's impossible to track or explain. But I will.

I think dA is pretty racist in it's own way. I've sensed this since the time I joined as *PrinceAmongThieves. N'fact, the sense got worse the more I hung around. Hey, though, I have friends still, right? Yes, and they're dear to me. People I've known who know who I am and what to say, and what to do. People who probably are still guessing at this very moment why I had left.

To make it simple, dA is biased.

To make it even more simple, I think dA is biased to certain types of people. And that is, what I do believe humans consider 'normal'.

Fuck. Even American Idol made my leave possible today. Yay.

Tell me, guys. Why do we live our lives? IMO, everyone's been being rather hypocritical about this today. It's almost disgusting. No. It IS disgusting. It's dreadful, stinky, anything-but-good, and a piece of underlieing SHIT. And really, since I can't spek englizasshshhh, I don't even know if I used words in the right places, but the fuck with that.

Think about it. Why do we live? Why are we people?

I agree that we all want attention sometimes, and at times, it becomes unbearable, and we end up doing everything we can for love. The scale of 'right' or 'wrong' be damned!

But that's not why we're here. We're people, we're all seperate, and we're all unique. Pretending to be someone will definitely get us friends, attention, fame, everything, but does it get us our life happiness? Hell no. Tell you the truth, the epic, selfish, half-assed truth,

Most of those dolts are only there because your dancing gumdrop act is making it possible. The second you let down your guard, open your heart, and your true and ever-so-wonderful being, they'll leave. And I know this for a fact. Why? Because I've DONE THIS TO SOMEONE.

Okay, yeah, 'like hell someone like you can do such a horrid act', can it, please. I don't even like the thought of it myself, but it's true. I've done it, and now that I think about it, a lot. But, I might have not done it, if the people hadn't pretended in the first place. But still, that puts me in the same place--a snivelling bitch.

But I'm okay with it. In fact, I want to say sorry to all of those I've done such a deed to. However, I still have much against it.

Why? Because I'm a hypocrite, and In My Ever Loving Opinion That You Sould All Know is that life isn't about the attention or fame or honor. It's about love.

"WAIT. ISN'T LOVE ATTENTION FAME AND HONOR OMFG?" No. Get a reality check, please.

Duh. I'm one of those stupid people who actually think that line every once in a while, but fuck, we're all human.

All we have to do is look back, realise the mistake, but go ahead on forward.

But... *grins to self* Thanks to my best friend, I also know it's important to enjoy the present too, no matter what. It's the present that's your present. Why else would they call it that?

So, I've ranted a lot, but haven't gotten to the point, huh? Well, I left dA because, I've noticed a lot, and believe me alot. People, just are... they just don't accept certain things. dA is one of the most biassed placed on the internet.

To tell you the truth, I don't even think I can explain this myself, but I definitely feel a horrible vibe from the people who reside in dA. It's not a very good one, I can tell you that. However, I agree there are at least some who are kind, worthy (in my horrible little vocab). They... accept. And I can feel it, the acception? It's a wonderful feeling, to be loved, not because you're the kindest person on earth, smartest person on earth, have the best art, or whatever. But because they love me unconditionally. As much as I get bitchy about things, I know for sure that these people are the people who are true.

They 'understand'.

Yeah, this is pretty biased in itself. In fact, I'll even say there's a whole bunch of these 'people' scattered across dA... they're just so hidden that they're unseen.

Why are the unseen, you ask? Because I have a feeling either some of them quit, or some of them are currently being masked by the evil masterminds of the dA.

Don't even ask where that conjecture came from. ATM, I'm pretty sure some of you are like "HOFUCK, YOU BIASED BITCH, JUST SHUT UP."

But really. Who's there to blame for my large mouth?

Ever since I was a kid, I was forced to be something, I guess. At the same time, I was always an outlaw (somehow OTL)

Anyway, I never did anything for myself. I only followed. I blame myself for not doing anything then. Now, I can't even deal with stress or pain, because I deal with it like a child probably would. I scream and cry and hit things, like a baby. Because I've been 'sheltered' in a way by just 'following orders'.

But there's always time for me to learn, I guess.

But I digress. I'm finding my true person, my self, the friend that my best friend fell in love with. And indeed, I have. I can't just sit here and let people bash on those who are doing all but trying to be themselves. I can't just sit here and turn my blind eye on it.

I want people to know how much I hate dA. It's greeness suddenly has an ominous taste to it, even today. I've seen too many things that went wrong that shouldn't have.

And so far, it's making me bleh ; )

I love you all, again. To those of you... who would probably still care after this and everything else. I mean, I know I don't make much sense, in fact, this is poorly organized to DISORGANIZATIONZENITH OTL, but I try... O__O <3?

I'm leaving dA until all the blood washes out of my ovaries, thank you very much.